Thursday, 31 December 2009

Thursday 31st December 2009

2009. WoaH! What can I say!? I dunno about YOU, but I had a good'un. I LOVED it, though obviously there were some downs, I enjoyed the ups too much to care about 'em now. I enjoyed myself, made decisions and GOOD ones at that, realised a few things and learnt plenty more.

I wanna say goodbye to 2009. NO 2010 is not MY year, I have to share it with the few billion people that exist on this green planet. NO I shan't make empty promises of success 'cause who knows tomorrow!? Certainly not I kind sirs, certainly not I.

We all have aspirations, goals, tasks that we set ourselves and we all hope to fulfill BUT many obstacles may come our way but we just knock 'em down innitttttt. WHAT ELSE DEN!? LoooL.

Nah but seriously, all I wish for is happiness and positivity 'cause with that, EVERYTHING is possible. With love and energy from your family and friends, that is a high I can live off of for the rest of my life [NO HYPE]. To all my loved ones, I wish you the BEST. To all those who hate me, I also wish you the best 'cause everyone deserves happiness and whether I offend you or you offend me, a smile is all I have to give.

I have NO New Years resolutions just hopes and wishes for better days to come. I have a particular approach to life I wish to test out and we'll see how it goes, I hope to get about more, be more focused and serious, BLOG MORE and enjoy my life to the fullest. Those are just GENERAL things, I don't need January 1st to come about to realise that.

Whatever you do into the New Year, ENJOY IT and stay blessed. One quote I love is 'Never a failure, always a lesson'.

I raise a glass of Rose to you all as I say, HappY NeW YeaR!

I KNOW you must be tired of it but Ima NEVER stop sayin' it...

x Love Life & Smile x

Monday, 28 December 2009

Dedication: Michael Kuba Kuba

I have a best friend, his name is Michael Kuba Kuba. He is like my other half, my alter ego, he SLYLY completes me, love is an understatement. But I am IN love with him.

He already gave me EARLY Christmas presents yeah but TODAY...

Happy canNOT describe. My grin looks like a capital U.

Ayyy, this laptop is LIVE! LoooL. The mouse is a Krappy Patty, can you IMAGINE. Kai!

When you have that special person[s] in your life, whether it's a family member, partner, friend, pet, imaginary pal. WHATEVER, show 'em that you love 'em EVERY SINGLE CHANCE you get. Not 'cause life is short ['cause we all hope that it ain't] but because they deserve it. A warm hug, kiss or compliment from the one you love is far more precious than ANYTHING!

Love is the perfect gift, if you got it, give it 'cause it'll come back to you multiplied. =)

I love you Michael.

x Love Life [those who love you] & Smile x

Tuesday, 22 December 2009

Chasing Unicorns through fields of Disloyalty.

I wrote this yesterday to perform at the 60second open mic night at iLuv Live BUT I didn't go due to tiredness from work AND scaredness due to chickenitos. LoL.

But yeah, hope you like it...

Running and running and moving away so fast yet at a slow pace tryna chase anything to help get away from what you left behind. Hoping to find something new though you knew, no you know that what you had was the best but with time it grew into a mess, such distress forever in pain with no gain just restraining the urge to return to where you once were when you were happy with the way things were. I sometimes forget those memorable days in my pursuit of change wishin’ I could rearrange the structure of your lies and make them more believable so there’d still be a chance for you and I, to give IT a go, but I don’t want IT anymore ‘cause I feel SICK when I don’t see you, I mean when I do see you, your beautiful. NO! You’re a foolish fool, I’m not meant to like you anymore, I actually don’t want to like you anymore it’s got to the point where I love the fact I like you when I’m not meant to be liking you anymore, ‘cause it’s funny that we play tit for tat with an emotional baseball bat that I use to SMASH into your head whilst we lie together in bed and you tell me lies about how I’m the only one who’s been in your bed, all these sweet nothings now give me diabetic chills of affection as you crave for 100% of my attention as I ponder on my bad intentions. We’re perfectly wrong for each other...

x Love Life & Smile x

Sunday, 20 December 2009


My mate @CapriStar brought me in on this, I HAD to blog it.

Words can't describe [no I ain't bein' lazy] so just watch...

I won't start throwin' around comments like, she sung it better than Beyonce but Ayyy.



Oh and my quote for today is...

': 2008 = 2000 AND GREAT. 2009 = 2000 AND MINE. 2010 = 20 WHEN, ARE YOU ACTUALLY GONNA FULFILL THESE EMPTY PROMISES!? January 1st don't encourage change so shullup! Merry Christmas' ShadeStar.

x Love Life & Smile x

P.s...I resumed work today, I only worked from 10 - 2 BUT living the wreckless Uni life I live, 10am is EARLY! But yeah, nothing in comparison to the 9 - 9 shift I got 2mar. GARD!

P.s x2 R.I.P Brittany Murphy. Died today from a cardiac arrest, aged 32. SAD MAN! Ignorant ppl on Twitter and FaceBook get on my NERVES. Death is NEVER funny or to be ridiculed. No matter what.

Saturday, 12 December 2009

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

ElfYourself - Christmas Festivity!

*** This is an explanation for the video above ***


I feel like showin' my Mummy and be like 'Mummy look what I did, look Mummy'. But Ima big girl, so I not gonna do that. ¬_¬

Na, my girl @hannarnia tweeted this website called ElfYourself, I clicked on it. MADNESS begun!

Basically you get to create an elf, as yourself, it's GREAT! Well the name kinda makes that obvious don't it. But yeah, I dunno, I'm just easily pleased. At the end you get to chose what kind of talent you have, like a hip hop dancer, singer...I chose Disco baybeee.

I'm gaaan to create another one. The greatest thing is...IT'S FREE. Well, unless you wanna like, buy a gift you've made or summink!? But seeing an elf version of myself dance to disco was ALL the joy I needed. =D

Oh, and I finished my essay today, be proud of meeeeeeeee. Whoop Whoop! Now, I'm off to design a snood for my recycle project which is due next week. SAD!

x Love Life & Smile x

Ima sucker for my ex, he comes over, next thing you know, I'm suckin' on my ex...

iWrite by Andrea Ushedo.

I'm in my Uni LRC. No I'm not doing work and NO I did not plan to be here. Basically I'm meant to be gaaan London at 09:22 BUT I missed my coach. My eyes are BURNIN' and I'm STUPID tired. My battery is DEAD, SAD! Why I may need battery life you ask!? 'Cause me mate is gonna stay over mine for z weekend SO I give him my key AND he ain't in. Where he has gone is BEYOND ME! I ain't even angry I'm just MAD tired to be honest.

I had a long night I was speakin' to my boy @ayojourno for a coupla coupla ['til me battery died, sowwe 'Yo] then I went to SLEEP!


I lay in my cousins bed thinkin'...

for AGES...

'til the sun rose, which was about 7[ish]

Then I dosed off and went to 'sleep'.

Actually 'sleep' is STILL an overstatement, I'll say, my eyelids did a snail pace type blink 'cause I was basically up by 8:20 and in the shower by half past.

Left my cousins around 9:15, started walkin' up z road to catch the coach to LDN. Got there at 9:23 THE COACH HAD GONE! WTPHUCK, the coach is meant to arrive at 9:22 why is it gone ONE minute later!? I have got this coach on NUMEROUS ocassions [twice] and [BOTH TIMES] it has been LATE! I'm not talkin' 5mins late. Ok, the coach comes every hour at 22past. I'm talkin' one time it came on the hour, so basically 38minutes late. Why, when it's FREEZIN' cold this mornin' does it wanna try and be on time and leave in a jiffy!? It's upsettin'.

But anyway, I ain't even angry, all my anger got used up last night/EARLIER this mornin' sooo I got none left 'til next year [but hopefully never]. I can't get angry for too long [over 15minutes] I've also got this CONSTANT reminder PRINTED on my fingers that never lets me stay sad.

I used to think I forgave too easily, but is there a time frame!? We just forgive. Life & Let die baby, it makes me stronger.


Do you know how many ppl I've seen walk into the LRC!? GARSH. I mean, does your brain function better at 9am on a Saturday mornin' or summink! I don't get it, there are LOADS OF PEOPLE, sleep, no, anyone!? SheesH!


YeaH so anyway I'm gaaan back to readin' my book [Sister Sister by Eric Jerome Dickey {GUYMAN AUTHOR}]/writin' my saucy poem, then I MIGHT decide to do some work before the 10:22 coach arrives but I highly doubt it, or I MIGHT decide to quickly RUN to ASDA and purchase some Wellington boots I saw in there the other day. The latter seems more realistic/the truth.

(8) ...Walk, walk, fashion baby. Work it, move that b*&%$ crazy...


x Love Life & Smile x

Tuesday, 8 December 2009

I knock her lights out and she still shine

No matter how MUCH I love Lil Wayne, and I love him, yesh I dooo. I must admit, Young Money are a MESS! ¬_¬

Their look, I mean. Them together as ONE is A LOT. They hurt my eyes to be quite honest...You may call me EXTRA but...

Nicki Minaj - This whole Harajuku Barbie thing is ANNOYIN'. Simply because I LOVEEE Japan with all my heart and soul, I BEG Harajuku n all, they have FANTASTIC sense of style BUT Nicki has got Indian in her which is nowhere near Japanese so that frustrates me. It's like me callin' myself a Black Star when I'm CLEARLY a Super Eagle...get it!? She's HOT though.

Gudda - I mean...[sigh]

Drake - Meh! We got2 love him regardless.

The Wiz Khalifa lookin' guy, can't member his name but he is in the 'BedRock' video, the one with all the tattoos and the polaroid camera...What is he about...

But yeah anyway...WEEZY F, WE LOVE YOU BAYBEEEE. That's enough criticising.

YeaH, 'Young Money - BedRock' video came out...I LIKE IT YOU KNOOOW! Lloyd. :O ...Damn! He is [insert word closest to perfection here]

YeaH, I like the video, it's nothing fantastic but it's good, so 'Ye clearly never directed it...[Ooooooh]. iKid.


I just slyly took a break from doing my work to quickly do this post. I hate to rush it BUT I've done 400words in like 2hours which is NOT great, PLUS the book I needed I found out is on loan 'til the 17th...when my essay is due in on the 16th. PAR!

But yeah...straight to the point, the video is COOL.

Wish me luck with progression of my essay and wish me luck AGAIN with the meeting I got 2mar mornin' [which is at 9:30, so you KNOW sleep is lackin' today].

x Love Life & Smile x

P.s... @Mali_Marls is a BIG FAT POO POO STIRRER! LoooL. Lil cute bundle of joy, who woulda known of her evil and conniving ways...

P.s x2 ...She [Malz] has been christened Yemi. =)

Wednesday, 2 December 2009

I can't believe it's bashment


The 'music' [I use that term looooooooooooooosely] is foul, I just don't feel in ANY SHAPE, SIZE OR FORM. It's not THAT!

I have never liked bashment, raves, never danced to it [and I can dance =P] it just doesn't interest me at all boy.



There I am, in my mates car as she blasts 'Teairra Mari - Phonebooth'. I hadn't heard that tune in AGESSS!!! Anyway, we were singin' along to it, twas cute, then the song faded...





'Me nah wan nah borin' F&%$, me nah wan nah borin' whine'


'Vybz Kartel - Bicycle'

Ayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyye!!! [Anj' waist does a tingggggggggggggggggg]

I still HATE bashment. This tune is demonic 'cause it makes me like it though I DON'T WANT TO!!! :@ ...AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH!!!

But it's a TUNE. =)

'...ride pon d cocky like a bicycle, ride pon d cocky like a bicycle, you love the lollipop you love the icylce, me don tell ya me nah wan nah borin' gyal'.

I could have possibly lost friends 'cause of this, LoooL. But meh! I give it where's it's due, I can't HELP IT!

Oh and I have a STRONG idea to WHY this song suddenly appeals to me, [sigh]. We talk about it later!

x Love Life [NOT BASHMENT] & Smile x

SEX [no introduction]

I need an introduction. I'm squeamish, giggle a lot, QUITE very shy so I blush a lot and pretend I don't like certain things said and done to me 'cause I dunno how to react to 'em. With all this, I am easily pleased.

Anyone willing to give me an introduction to SEX!? I'm being SO serious...ANYONE!?

I'm not on about the birds and the bees, Year 8 sex ed and me mummy got all that part covered, the dangers and blah di blah...

I know the basic outline, I don't want that, if you and a boy like eachother, you may decide to have sex to show how passionate you are for on another, BRAVVV!!! I know the BASICS INNIT!

I AM quite secretive at times BUT things I personally feel EVERYBODY goes through I share, if it's TMI...I apologise. YeaH, so sexual frustration, it's been here for a while, lingerin' around and stuffsss...LoL. I CURED it one time, or swept it under the carpet, one of 'em but it wasn't there basically at one point, well it's BACK now.

FACE, I'm not even interested in it nomore [iLied] but I just don't want it [iLied again] I'M BORED OF IT [My name is Pinocchio] Ok basically, I don't wanna get it anymore incase I soon get tired of it. So if you don't wanna partake in summink you LOVE and enjoy, you got to replace it 'cause tryna get rid of it completely is just not realistic.

I've told my mates @WillOkobi and @ayojourno that I was gonna DO one guy that I liked called **S**N BUT I chickened out, he's WENG, we flirt on Twitter. [FOLLOW ME @Shadestars]

I listen to 'Trey Songz - Invented Sex' and think, YIKES!

Then I listen to 'Teedra Moses - Complex Simlicity' then I'm like, Mmmm, 4real.

THEN COMES ON 'Paramore - Pressure' then I'm like GAAAH!

SEX! I think about it probably MORE than boys, difference is, I'm not active. I'm not tryna release the inner BOSH within me or find a guy to BONE but I just wondered A LOT about people's idea on what sex is to them, if they need it or just indulge in it, are they out to please themselves or their 'partner'. I dunno...Just randomly wonderin'.

x Love Life [practice safe sex] & Smile x

Monday, 30 November 2009


Didn't you know I was waiting on you
Waiting on a dream that'll never come true
Didn't you know I was waiting on you
My face turnt to stone when i heard the news

When you decide to break the rules
'Cause I just heard some real bad news

People will talk like its old news
I played it off and act like I already knew
Let me ask you how long have you known her
You played it off and act like she's brand new

When you decide to break the rules
'Cause I just heard some
real bad news

Real bad news

Real bad news

Real bad news

Oh you just gonna keep another no you wont

Oh you just gonna keep it like you never knew

Oh you just gonna keep another love for you

Oh you just gonna keep it ike you never knew

While im waiting on a dream that'll never come true

Oh you just gonna keep it like you never knew

My face turnt to stone when i heard the news

Whats on the news, channel cruise.

x Love Life & Smile x

Wednesday, 25 November 2009

Hear no, See no, Speak no...

'When in Rome...'

If you live in a cage with tigers, you'll adapt to your surroundings and in due time, begin to ROAR, it's inevitable.

How do you remain positive, when negativity is what fuels your car on this journey called life!?

It's strange 'cause I genuinely try to get along with everyone, I don't feel we have to necessarily be FRIENDS, BUT common ground is fine with me. This has become one of the HARDEST things to do. Everybody is tryna change, tryna be someone else, tryna get somewhere, tryna be 'that person'. It's like, people's identities change more times than the Google logo. Nobody is exactly the same, we have similarities, we have differences, but which are what bring us and draw us to eachother!? It could be the differences, being enlightened by what others know and have done, that interests you, inspires you to learn and do more, or it could be the similarities, liking them 'cause they like what you like, you two can relate in more ways than one. Who knows. But it's HARD to do now 'cause nobody is being themselves, people put on a facade to fit in and stand out, that you can't even begin to try and tell what kind of person they are. Maybe the world would be a better place if everyone was the same, no!? [sigh]

It's like, a persons personality makes them who they are, why would you wanna change that!? Wouldn't you rather be the BEST you, than a rebore anyone else!? 1st place will ALWAYS remain better than 2nd place, but 2nd place is what your settling for by tryna adapt someone elses characteristics as your own. It's like I say, to avoid contradiction, say nuffin!

I've tried to be the good guy, I've tried to be the bad guy, I've tried to be the inbetween guy. I've tried and I've tried BUT...I can't be anything more than the Andrea guy. LoL. It's who I am, I sit here tryna find ways to describe how and what the Andrea guy is but, I just can't. It's just ME I guess. The way I look, the way I speak, the way I act, the way I walk...It comes naturally and it's when I feel most comfortable.

I've done a lot of bad things and I've tried to right those wrongs, even this week, I apologised to a VERY close friend well EX friend of mine, he claims to have accepted but hey who knows, the least I can do is try 'cause pretendin' I don't care about him when I do is silly, it's affectin' me more than it is him so why lie!? I've been FAKE, I've spoken to people who have REALLY hurt me 'cause I can't BE negative, I can't hold grudges, I can't bare to loose people I once cared for...But tryna hold on and wishin' summink was there when it just REALLY isn't is harder and worse than lettin' go. I tend to adapt peoples problems into my OWN life, disregarding the things that are important to be in my attempt to be that good friend, not realisin' that it's not fair on me and that it's sendin' my life downhill.

Recently it's been like an avalanche, recently I've been doin' a lot of thinkin' and I'm not ashamed to say that recently I've been doin' a lot of cryin'. Though I love my family and friends dearly, I need to prioritise everything. Lately I been thinkin' about sex TOO often for it to be normal, I mean TOOO much! [side eye] It's NOT important, it's NOT where my focus should be but I can't help it...or can I!?

I say [SN1] spare no.1 and par before you get parred and it's an attitude I've been FORCED to take on 'cause of the situations I've been through recently, I'm not like that, I like to smile at EVERYONE and just 'Love Life' negativity but it seems as though no matter how much I try, peoples actions are pushin' me in a direction I don't wanna go in [I'm not a murderer or nought but yeah, LoL] at all. I wish I could turn back the hands of time and do things differently with so many things/people...

1] I woulda stayed friends with him

2] I woulda been more than friends with HIM

3] I woulda never got FaceBook

4] I would DEFO tell her my true feelings from the get go

5] I wish I never lost weight and remained Size 24 life was GOOD then, I just din't know it

6] I wish I told my Dad I love him everyday

ArgH, the list is long, I'm gettin' tired and it's MAD late.

I just wanna enjoy myself, have a good time with good people and smile, thats all. I'm SO easily pleased you could buy me a SpongeBob penny case [from Amazon] for Christmas and I'd love you forever.

I'd rather regret sayin' summink than regret not sayin' it. Friendship is about tolerance, I'm tryna be a better person and nobody is perfect, I'm far from it, but if you care about me in the slightest, you'd stick around and join me on my journey, as I strive towards becomin' that person. As I would do for you and anyone would do for any loved one.

x Love Life & Smile x

Saturday, 21 November 2009


Keri Hilson


I dunno where to begin really and truely...Ermmm...WHAT IS THAT ON HER HEAD PLEASE!?

Makes NO sense. It's like a cross between a full head of weave/ponytail/mullet/squirrel tail Ushanka lookin' discombobulation!

Apparently this chick is meant to have 'style' 'swagger' and all them other words that describe the way a person dresses and carries themselves...YEAH! [side eye] She dresses like a normal prissy girl, I DON'T see the big fuss.

I personally give it where it's due yeah, so Keri is a HOT PIECE OF LADY. Don't ever get that twisted BUT I just don't rate her like everyone else does, sowwe! She just don't have 'IT'.

She's NO Beyonce! [May I state that they are of the same age, SAD!]

But yeah, I didn't feel her music [I hadn't listened to anything to be fair] but some of my mates wanted to show me that she deserves the hype around her name and stuffsss...

I got her album, listened to it. Meh! It's good. I like ermmm...'Tell Him The Truth' 'Intuition' and 'Return The Favour'. There may be some more but as of now that's all I can think of. RIGHT...Basically OOOOOOOOOH YEAH! 'Slow Dance' Hooo YESSSH! That is a banger aswell [bar the fact that in the video she is wearin' a YSL Snake skin dress previously worn by my BOO Amber Rose who rocked it A MILLION, TRILLION INFINITY times better than her] I quite liked the video and do like the song.

Since then there's been no Keri hypes, I don't really play her album much but I see she released some next tune inspired by a German film or summink. It ain't on z album but yeah...

It's called 'I Like' and quite sadly, I don't. I really don't. LoL.

Her eyes, eeek! She got them bedroom eyes. But sincerely, Kel, GET RID OF THE HAIR!!!

I've said enough, you be the judge...



x Love Life & Smile x

Lust For Life

'...but you could miss me with all that, diss me then crawl back, I really wish ya'll would fall back'

I got it, I'm listenin' to it, alla daaah!

I can't sleep [as usual] and I started to write...Well I was freestylin' actually, but I was writin' it down/tweetin' it. JOKES.

Well it was funny to ME until I realised how much JUNK I actually was writin'. GAAAH!

  1. : wishin' I was back there but prayin' I never go back there, I smile in fear, I cry in joy. GASSED! GOT8HJ96RQEP'RTYU (*&^%$%^&*(oEPRTFGH'J
  2. : this isn't what I want. Thinkin' it's what I need, findin' it difficult to let go, though I already let it slip through my fingers...
  3. : him all I see is a blank stare, what once was is no longer there, as I shed tears I smile and reminisce, longin' one last kiss knowin'...
  4. : he kept me afloat, as we set a sail on our love...ship, then came the bulls*** I'm forcin' to hold onto what isn't there, when I look at..
  5. : He promised that he'll catch me instead he made me fall. He became shallow the more I became DEEP in 'it' with him. Though I can't swim...

¬_¬ MAAAAAAAAADDEST SIDE EYE BOY. I dunno what came over me, Drake got me gassed up, I was thinkin' all this as I was bumpin' 'Lust For Life' instrumental.


YeaH, I dunno, at my age I'm still a scaredy cat, I'm not ashamed to admit this. Tonight I had a weird, scary, boot quivering experience I shall no longer talk about as it'll RE-scare me. I'll post it when the sunrises or summink.

Everyday I learn, I don't feel TOO bad when I do things wrong as all it means to be is that I've learnt summink new. In the end it'll all benefit me BUT sometimes I do wonder what this 'LIFE' is about, what it's for!? YeaH I believe in God, I ain't an Atheist or nought BUT my mind wanders, A LOT. So many unanswered questions, too many to list, pointless in talkin' about them as nobody seems to be willin' to provide any answers.

Whatever life is, I'm lustin' over it...a bad thing!? [shrugs] Another question unanswered.

Today I discovered that MAYBE, JAAAAAAAAAAAST MAYBE I chose the wrong career path...I was bored and was takin' pictures of myself as I tend to do [or make videos] when I'm bored. I stumbled across THIS...

THE MOST PERFECT SCHOOL TEACHER STANCE EVERRRRRRRRR! [NO EXAGG] I mean, what an interesting teacher I would be, I dunno what I'd teach though...Perhaps make up my own subject. =D ...Ayyy, me minds wanderin'.

iKid [slightly]

I believe it is a perfect school teacher stance BUT I do not believe I chose the wrong career path.

I'm talkin' rubbish and I have been told by someone today that I chat s*** so I shall not prove him right any further...

'Not all who wander are lost'.

x Love Life & Smile x

Tuesday, 17 November 2009








x Love Life [Lady GaGa & Beyonce] & Smile x

Friday, 13 November 2009

Tit for Tat is the only game I play...

Can someone tell me how 'Russian Roulette' is GENUINELY classified as a game please!?


No honestly...That's your LIFE on the line you know...LoL.

1 in 6 chance you could blow your own brains out. [or however many rounds can fit into a cylinder in a revolver] I mean, come on...

Na but it's Friday 13th [Woooo scary] and coincidently today is the day that Rihanna planned to release the second video from her album 'Rated R' [which I don't intend to purchase]. I've actually had GOOD LUCK today, had a really nice day as it goes, delightful. But yeah, I stumbled across her video, quite disturbing as I guessed from the get go, BUT it's alright/good. [shrugs] it's not crap it's just, meh/blah!

You be the judge, I dunno, I feel no way towards it for some reason...
x Love Life & Smile x


Thursday, 12 November 2009

Cheese on toast

I like cheese on toast, do you like cheese on toast!? 'Cause I LOVE cheese on toast.

Greetings earthlings, it is I, ShadeStar of planet Zybatron. [I enjoy sayin' that SO much it's a problem]

Todays been eventful, I had a lecture at 9 - 11. Usually I MISS that lecture I cannot lie, it's my only mornin' lecture of the whole week, for ME. 9am is 5am for the average person, TOO EARLY for anything let alone studying. But summink motivated me this mornin' and I got up and was on time for it [9:06] I was impressed.

I flew down [literally] to London 'cause I had to take my lil bro to some Athlete's exhibition fingy majig for 1pm. Got to London arounddd 12:15[ish] and who did I catch in Kings Cross Station!? Me Aunty, yaaay! I only yaaay because she drives and this is a ride home. She was comin' from some place doin' summink, I kinda zoned out 'cause I was slyly tired.

When I got home lil bro was ready and we set off. The exhibition was ALRIGHTTT you know, though I have no interest in coachin' or sports for that matter, it was somewhat enjoyable, PLUS we got free food. =D

On the journey home, I stopped off in Woolwich to meet a friend who borrowed my USB. Mans got work to do hinnit so I had to get that back, whilst in the process of doin' this my lil bro [whose name is Anthony, what I will be referrin' him as from this point on] said 'Aaargh, Anj lets go HMV quickly'. We went.

I din't know nor did I care what he wanted to do in HMV. He then says 'Aaah, you know that game I bought MW2 yeah!?'. I give him a straight face stare that simply means 'Go on'. He contines 'They got some night vision goggles that go with it yeah, they are SICK! It makes it like I'm proper in the game, like in the screen'. I then give him a side lip crawl left eyebrow raised glance that means 'FANTASTIC, why are you tellin' me this!?'. He proceeds, 'I BEGGG you buy them for me, pleaaase, it can be my early birthday present'. I blinked...

Na, the goggles look SICK though and as I been seein' him play the game I can just imagine the LIVEEE effect it will have on the gameplay, but like I MENTIONED, I will never use it and I wasn't interested in buyin' them but...should I buy it for him I contemplated...

Cut a long deliberation short, no I din't buy them for him...

When I got in I remembered, WAIT! THIS GUY HAD THESE GOGGLES IN THE HOUSE THE OTHER DAY!!! But he told me that they were my BIG brothers and that he was comin' to collect them later tonight, I then felt bad, but still not £120 worth of sad, sowwe Ant!

Knowin' me, Ima buy 'em for him on z weekend or summink, this lil guy is quite the persuader.


I slammed my right thumb in my Aunts car door, YOUCH! =( ...It don't hurt no more BUT apparently people's nails fall off when they get caught in doors and what have you...Dude, GOD FORBID! I'm shoook lie! Hopefully it's fine though, I ran it under cold water. ^.^

When I eventually got home, I jumped on Twitter and a friend of mine [@fizzief] shares how he is enjoyin' JLS' album '[no homo just promo]'.

AH HA! I ENJOY their album aswell surprisingly you knowww! I bought the album the other day and I am QUITE impressed. I LOVE 'Everybody In Love, Keep You, Heal This Heatbreak, Close To Me, Tightrope, Kickstart'. Naa the album is genuinely GOOD guys, I recommend it, honestly!

I think they had a bad start with 'Beat Again' and the shambolic video that went with it, but bar that, give it where it's due guys. But may I add that now when I listened to 'Beat Again' on iTunes without the video, I find myself singin' along to it. :O

Hehe, JLS baybeee.

x Love Life & Smile x

Tuesday, 10 November 2009

My booo is BACK!

: (8) ...Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah! Roma-roma-mamaa! Ga Ga-ooh-la-la! Want your bad romance...

My wifey [though I was upset with her 'cause her and 'Ye cancelled their Fame Kills tour I was so happy about] has come back with a video, the first song released from the deluxe edition of her album 'The Fame: Monster'.

Singles called 'Bad Romance'. I heard the song last week and saw a clip of the video.

Here I am, nappin' and my guy 'Yo rings me to alert me. THE VIDEO HAS COME TO TOWN! =D

Obviously I jumped on Twitter [what has taken over my FaceBook time] and Tweet Tweeted away.

Na, the video has made me love the song MUCHO! I actually REALLY love Lady GaGa and everything about her, I think she's AMAZING!

I realised, she kept on being pictured with these ornaments covering the majority of her face, now in the video her and her dancers are wearin' 'em. I'm guessin' it's a theme for the album, you know how T Pain had the whole circus theme for 'Thr33 Ringz'!? YeaH, like that.


The video is CRAZY! Ai meppou takusan. >.<

x Love Life [Lady GaGa] & Smile x



I enjoy Twitter. MORE than I ever imagined I EVER would, it's crazy! My URL is @Shadestars

My gang who make Twitter what it is for ME are as follows [in no/somewhat a particular order]










There may be some more BUT I can't think of anymore right now, but then if I can't think of them then I guess their presence in my Twitter life isn't as great as I once thought...Blah!

Anyway, I reckon everyone should get Twitter, it's the bi'nizzz! I love it. PLUS if everyone gets Twitter, I will eventually SADLY but surely bring my FaceBook existence to a SHOCKING end!

There will obviously be a slight delay due to my addiction and monogamous relationship we once shared, yes, yesh I am still talkin' about FaceBook!

Yesterday [Monday] was a fun day but then it turned emotional towards the end but like I have recently promised myself, I kept my composure, I was so AMAZED that I could and did. =)

YaaaY me!

Sometimes, all your emotions shouldn't be expressed. Sometimes your affection towards someone should remain only known by you. SOMETIMES, things don't work out the way you once wished they would and there is nought you can do but be happy at the fact it happened and move on. It seems easier said than done, I won't lie, it truly is. But it's not as hard as you think, a stable heart is a stable mind is a stable body. Let your mind and body work hand in hand and in due course, everything will be fine and when you sit and reminicse on old memories...You won't sulk and pray for a chance to go back, instead you'll smile and prepare yourself for the better things to come that lie ahead.

x Love Life & Smile x

P.s...No, I was on ConcreteLoop [as usual] and they posted JoJo - BackWords :O

Is JoJo back[ish, as she kinda wasn't really here to begin with BUT had some tunesss]!? I enjoy the song but I dunno, you tell me...

P.s x2 This song kinda contradicts my last thoughts but hey, LoL. I din't say I can relate, I just like the track.

Monday, 9 November 2009

* Jingle of the moment *

'Rihanna, I'm happy for you and Ima let you finish BUT...Tina Turner had the greatest domestics of ALL TIME' via @Ayojourno

Rihanna is COOL, I likes her BUT her interview!? No need. Coincidently she plucked up the courage to speak on her beat down and look like a victim and make Chris Brown look like a PSYCHO KILLER right before both of their albums are set to be released...WE DON'T CARE THOUGH!?!

Chris Brown is a GUYMAN! I love him and will continue to...


But yeah, my Jingle of the moment is his latest track called 'I can transform ya'.


Enjoy and shimmy on dowwwn!

x Love Life & Smile x

ShadeStar - Distorted

I forgot one of my deadlines were for this Monday...PAUSE!

NO I DIDN'T FORGET MY DEADLINE WAS ON MONDAY, my lecturer decided it was OK to change my deadline from the 24th - 9th. ¬_¬

NOT impressed. Major, just means I had to get me skates on.

RIGHT...It's not a PROPER deadline, it's called a 'Formative Assessment' which is basically the deadline before the REAL deadline where your lecturer gets the opportunity to tell you how crap your work you've done so far is...LoooL. Or in rare cases vice versa.

Anyway, so this FUNFILLED weekend I had planned got taken over by loads and LOADS of work doin'. I don't mind 'cause I got majority of it [for ONE module] out of the way so I'm happy and impressed. =)

Ermmm...YEAH! I took a break from all the hard work [Anj wipes sweat from forehead] and as usual, my short attention span found entertainment...


x Love Life & Smile x

Thursday, 5 November 2009

Alla daaah!

I have not blogged in AGES! This is REALLY bad, I'm not even gaaan to blame University nomore 'cause that isn't the real excuse, my growin' illness [Lethargy] is to blame. I NEED TO OVERCOME THISSS!!!

I ain't had me lappy @ Uni though with me so I can use that part [though I some how find myself on FaceBook at least once every 3days] ¬_¬

Right, Ima be back properly SOON. I won't say now 'cause that's almost a lie.

OMDZZZ!!! Last week Thursday, I performed at my Uni talent show called 'BE' it was LIVE! I am ever so proud of myself, the adrenaline rush was MENTAL! I loved every minute of it though, I have said before and REALLY mean it, Ima get serious with it so HOPEFULLY news and info on that will be on here soon[ish].


But yeah...Today there has been SO much Twitter banter about Trey Songz new video for his single 'I invented SEX'. I reckon quite personally boys are just HATIN'.

The girl looks hella pretty, nice body, Trey looks HELLA hot, nice body. They lookin' good, the video is NICE and the song is GOOD...SO!? What more do you want!?

Nobody said it should win video of the year but come on men, give it where it's due...

I just bought his album [Trey Songz] like 30minutes ago, I have had 'I invented SEX' on for the whole time but when I listen to the rest of the album, Ima let you know how it is...I heard it's good already though...

P.s...the £8 I used to BUY it on iTunes was meant to be for my train ticket back to yeah! Ermmm...Shafe!

x Love Life x

P.s...x2 No glove no love...Strap it up before you smack it up.


Saturday, 17 October 2009

No introduction needed...[But TECHNICALLY that is an introduction, right!?]


I see this video the other day but I dunno why I din't think to blog it, Oh well you've probably all seen it by now, but I guess you can never get enough of it ay...

Concrete Jungle out November 9th. I actually can't wait much longer, I been waitin' for TOOO long now!!!

x Love Life [SCORCHER] & Smile x

Friday, 16 October 2009

My Edge - er - merc - ay - sion

I actually have NOT blogged in AGES! Oh wow, there is no excuse, I have a REASON [or a few] but still no excuse.

I have returned/started University, right...I live off campus and haven't got internet in my abode yet...HOPEFULLY by the end of this week...As in next week. LoooL, I will have internet by then.

Empty promises are comfort for a fool, so...FOOL...I got a lot up my sleeve for you...Keep posted, until I post it...

x Love Life & Smile x

Sunday, 4 October 2009

My FAV celeb couple

If you know me you know that I have somewhat fallen in love with Amber Rose, if you don't know me but you're reading this then you know I have somewhat fallen in love with Amber Rose, if you don't know me and you're not reading this but someone you know IS and informs you that I am somewhat in love with Amber Rose, you will thus eventually know that I, AM SOMEWHAT IN LOVE WITH AMBER ROSE.


Ambs and 'Ye are my fav celeb couple man, bar the rumours their relationship is a publicity stunt and alla daaah, SO!? They look amazingly HOT together, agree!? YES, I thought you would.

Amber Rose has been modelling for 'ELLE' recently and she had a photoshoot this week which Kanye West was the stylist for. [PERF COUP]. Right, yeah 'Ye styled the shoot and Ambs did what she does best...look FIERCE!

Here's video footage from the shoot...

She's too much, they're too cute. I was NOT 'Ye's friend [yes I know him personally {in my dreams}] because I found out the 'Fame Kills' tour with GaGa has been CANCELLED, which almost led me to depression [exagg, but you know what I mean]. I was NOT and still am not impressed, but I'll get over it [no I won't].

I have had 'Day - 26 - Don't fight the feeling' on repeat for the good part of an hour now, nope, still not bored of it. Aaaah...

(8) '...Don't tell me, just show me. If you say you love me, when you touch me your body should say so...' Aaaaaaaaay, tune. ;)

P.s...ALDO is such a crap store, nothing online or in-store is worth a penny from my piggy...

x Love Life ['Ye and Ambs relationship] & Smile x


I couldn't think of a title!

But yeah, I ain't blogged for a minute or so [a few days] 'cause I been sortin' some other stuffsss out, so basc, I ain't had the time, well I have SECRETLY but by the time I get back in I can't bov to do anything else but speak to my boo on the phone then sleep!

The week has been slightly eventful but putting that to one side.


I know I say loads of times that I cannot breathe but LITERALLY [exagg] when I saw this, I couldNOT breathe! Naaaaaaaaaa, the picture slyly takes away some of the gruesomeness of it but BELIEVE it was NASTY!

My big bro found it, it was in our front garden, right by the side of his car, I mean I screamed!

The thing is, the cat/fox/evil animal that killed it, decided that my front garden was the ideal place to drop it off AND the feathers were EVERYWHERE! I think the WORSE part of it all is that it was killed and not eaten. I mean, what was the point!? LoooL. Pure evilness mayne!

I was not impressed, nobody wanted to touch it but then SUPERWOMAN came along [Me Mummy] and got rid of the distin and cleaned up all the residue and dem ting der. So yeah, 'til today please believe I hop skip JUMP over that part of the driveway, Ok!

I've returned back to Uni, not in the perfect fairytale way I planned to but returned nonetheless. It's there, ain't had a lecture [1st one is 2mar] so it's been COOL so far, I ain't been drunk yet.

I know of a lady who is a black version of Ellen from a 'Single White Female' I mean, she is a sly Psycho. [cold shivers].

Oh and I FINALLY saw the full length video for this tune!

HappY [late] NigeriaN IndependencE DaY to my fellow Nigerian brothers and sisters!

x Love Life & Smile x

Thursday, 1 October 2009

Basically, my point is...

I'm ILL! I mean, I canNOT breathe through my nose, so my lips are constantly dry due to them having to be left open to survive. My nose is stuffy, yet when I blow nought comes out. My head pounds from time to time. My back and right knee are bruised up and hurting. I sneeze uncontrollably. I'm ILL. I require cuddles, and plenty of 'em.

I dyed my hair. =D ...It's Chestnut Blonde, but do not be fooled, it's not peroxide blonde.

I have officially return to/started Uni [again].

I just painted my nails red and orange, they look pretty but I'm typing very carefully.

I reckon Eddie Murphy is WELL cute.

I'm watching 'The Heartbreak Kid' this film is JOKES!

I'm sippin' Tropical Juice, Mmmmmm...

I was craving Mc Donalds at like 3am yesterday, I was miserable 'cause I couldn't have none.

I was rude to someone like 24hrs ago. But I DO NOT feel bad because he deserved it.

I want a new phone, I'm changing my tariff and my Mother is a respected customer sooo, Ima try work some magics.


I got 6 40% off vouchers from ASOS. Fun times. hehe.

Amber Rose now has a labret piercing like I do, and has a hoop in it, LIKE I DO...YaaaY.

I just LOVE this couple man. K & A baybeee!

x Love Life & Smile x

Sunday, 27 September 2009

My booo...

Anyone who knows me knows I got a thing for Scorcher...


I'm too excited for it NOT to get released [again] this time, my heart won't take to it.

x Love Scorcher x



It's only ONE sentence but it made me laugh SO bad...aaah maaan. Good times.

x Love Life [your sexuality] & Smile x

I forgot Bashy

I stumbled [I been doing a LOT of that recently] across a link shoiwn' the trialer to Bashy's new video 'Life' and I posted it up stating the FULL LENGTH video will be out on Friday. Then what happened when Friday came!?! I forgot about Bashy.

But anyway now that I've remembered him...

YeaH that's it. The tune and the video are on point man, Bash is comin' correct, I enjoy.


Gaaan off topic, last night I got DRUNK, bashed my knee on a pole on the bus, went out with some of me favourite girlies, met up with Willy, saw a face that makes me do DUMBNESS but was too drunk to care, had Mc Donalds breakfast, smoked 3 cigarettes [don't ask], woke up with a bruised purple knee and a load of other stuffsss...

Right now I'm listening to slowjams tryna get inspiration to write summink.

I was meant to move into Uni TODAY and as always Andrea dunno when to be serious so I am still at home BUT Ima go this mornin' [or will I?] HOPEFULLY.

Pray I write summink good and go Uni 2mar please...

x Love Life & Smile x

Friday, 25 September 2009

Lil Miss Mei

Well alright thennn, LFW [London Fashion Week] has been the talk of the globe, well it always is, with the Londoness and Fashion and all.

I [sadly] din't attend none of the shows though the world and his pony attended, I feel ashamed. Next year Ima DEFO be there...Who knows, I might even be on z catwalk itself... ¬_¬

Well I weren't on there this year BUT two of me mates WERE. Miss Mei & Michael Morgan, look out for both 'em. They both have really cool blogs, serious BLOGMEN, I'll post 'em at the end 'cause right now Lethargic Anj is BURSTING through my fingers.

Miss Mei gettin' her pose on on z catwark...

My boo Michael doin' HIS thang on z catwark alsooo. There is a REALLY funny story I have to accompany this photographic image BUT I shant tell you, 'why' you cry!?

1] Because it was slightly a personal joke

2] Even if it was a public joke you probably won't get it

3] If you DON'T find it remotely as funny as I do, I'd be upset and it'll ruin the joke in my eyes...

...How will I know whether you [reading] will find it remotely as funny as I do I hear you mutter!?

I CAN FEEEL YOU [no molester].

X Love Life [LFW] & Smile x